today, de multi racial gang saw my wallpaper.
den doubts doubts.. LOL?
coz they think i took this pic from google. LOL?
LOL. den i keep telling them 'really~ east coast park take de~~'
haixx. i know.. my photography skills sibei powerful ehh.

anyways, continue wid de today's event .
but .. not really in a good mood now.
maybe u all can guess it out lahh.
i dont wanna talk more abt it anyway.
hai! it has something to do wid Jagi.
haixx. anyways, don wanna post long lahh.
just summarise.

today went to sch at 8plus.
reach there abt 9 le. den go t04-06 to have
de practical lesson.
but we nvr wear safety boots.
however, its 1st day. so nvm.
after tat, go for lunch. i think?
yeah. we go lunch. wid my multi racial gang.LOL?
talked alot of rubbish. den laugh till face all red.
hahas. damn funny can?
hahas. next, we go auditorium half an hour early.
den feroz say 'where's de horseman?'
den we say 'wat horseman'
feroz 'there, oth man'.
LOL????
he then added 'tell u all arhh, im daydreaming for de last few seconds.
abt wat i should name my boy'.
den i said 'u gt a baby already/!!'
den u should see everyone's face.. LOL? we laugh till very..... LOL?
so feroz say 'dont laugh hor. i decided to name my kid othboy.
when he grown up, i change his name to othman'
LOL?????????????????????????????????????????????????
den de talk was lyk erm...supposed to start at 12.50 - 1 de.
but havent let us in.
den jeroz say 'i know why havent start!'
den we say why.
he said 'he's a director lehh! he needs lights, camera, and someone to say action'
so kumar say 'easy lahh. ur phone have camera. lights arhh. go out lahh.
gt sunlight. action? so easy. anyhow find one person can liao'.
hahas... den feroz say 'cnt! de director wants 7megapixels. 3.2 not counted hor'.
hahahahahas, yanzhe, firdaus n i laugh til face whole red liao.
den de talk was abt de wat ccas all these lahh.
and de requirements to go poly.
say wat have to go through 'o' lvl eng/maths.
if get grade 1/2 den can go poly.
well, actually, i thought if i go poly after this,
i might see dear de.
but actually, i cnt. yeah. i cnt.
coz u see lahh.
next yr he's 19 le. right? coz this yr he 18 mahh.
den yeah lahh. since 17-19 yeahs old go poly.
den 20 have to join ns le.
den i 19years old go poly...
but he in ns. i go poly for wat le.
its pointless. right? i dun even know if i can make it so long wid him not.
since he's giving up le.
right? i guess. he's giving up...
he's not coming back le. is he?
is he using 'cuz i'm going to be too busy to be able to spend time wit u'
excuse..... or is it a fact.
well... i hope.. he's not lying.
however, i wonder. am i really going to give up?
or am i going to continue in this ....
am i able to give up?
should i?
must i?
can i?
i wish to... but how?
since he doesnt wanna continue le.
i got de feeling tat he doesnt wanna continue.
nope, he doesnt.
i wonder... if these day, these past 4 months..
did he really wanna be wid me or not.
doubts.....
coz i know.. he always use 'busy' to be his excuse.
but. i can understand... i understand.. tat he is busy.
well, mostly because he does care alot abt his studies den me.
i knew it. he can spend de whole day doing his work,
ignoring my messages, my calls, everything.
coz in his mind, there's only 'work. work. work'.
and if he's reading this now,
i gt 3 ques for him ' isnt it true ? did i say anything wrong? im correct, uh?'
i know.. he wont blame me. for having another bf ...
i know he wont. he's always so nice to me.
yes, i admit. sometimes he did makes me annoyed.
but how. wat can i do. i was the one who accepted him in de 1st place.
not u. right? so...
i guess...
i tot we could last longer..
i dont mind.. i dont mind whether he's busy or not.
it doesnt matter anymore. im used to it le. really.
but i dont wanna say 'ok . fine. let's break.'
i dont wanna be de one who says tat. i dont...
i would rather u'd be de one who says 'let's break'.
can u do tat?
if u find it very painful. if u find it hurting.
i wont blame u de dear.. i really wont.
i wont even blame u if u gt a gf behind my back.
i really wont de... u can trust me on tat.....
but... i just wish u can rmb me.... after.. we've gone... separate ways.
i really hope u can rmb tat...
i know u n ur ex had been tgt for a very long time...
and ur comparing me n her.. everyday........ didn u?
so.. plz... tell me ok?
i know its weird for me to say this...
but i really mean it..

anyways, sorry. for tat...
cnt control emotions..
aww. saded. LOL?
anyway, after tat talk, go back class.
den its lyk our multi racial gang sit tgt.
well, actually de whole of 1st row table is mine de..
but they stole it from me.
den so, de 5 of us share de space for 4 ppl de.
LOL?
den de behind behind me de is de
ahhhhhhhhhh! goddamnit guy and his frenz.
den mr othman say 'ehh, u all 5 ppl. cant.'
den he rolled tat ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!goddamnit! guy.
LOL? to sit behind me de table lahh. wlao. damn funny can?
den lyk we sit lahh. k? ahh.
den tat guy arhh, his pencil drop.
den i help him pick up lahh.
so he said 'ohh, sorry sorry'. =.=!
my reaction was lyk 'erm.. was it supposed to be thank you? and not sorry?
think ur singing super junior's sorry sorry arhh'. LOL?
anyways, after he return to his seat,
his frenz -de behindbehind de say 'so, gt get her phone number?'
den he say 'no lahh. i dunno wat to say sial. so i keeps sayin sorry.'
well, actually i didn hear lahh. to be more specifc, its earsvdrop lahh.
hahas. anyways, very funny lahh.
den de multi racial gang they all laugh til face red again.
den mr othman say 'wat so funny?' den we all say nothing nothing.
hahas. den he say 'u all arhh. wat u eat for lunch! food poisoning arhh?!'
hahas.... so all of them say they eat this , eat tat.
den they say 'den i tell u arhh, sir, this girl abnormal know?
she only drink a cup of milo!'
den mr othman say 'yahh. i know. she told me ytd she's saving money for camera'
den he ask me 'how much does de camera u want cost?'
den i say 'maybe 2000plus bahh. but if i last min decide de 300++ de, i can spend
de rest on other things. wahaha! =.=!'
den de whole class say 'chalet lahh. buffet lahh'blahblahblah. LOL?
tell u all-this class super hyper.... LOL?